#2610M

There is a big difference between the mental modes of calm planning, energized execution and panicked reactivity.

For example: today I went out with the aim of having a coffee and outlining my ongoing projects, breaking them down and prepping them for execution. This had me excited, I expected to feel confident about doing this and about helping myself focus on simple tasks without the overhwelm of all the other things from all the other proejcts swimming around in my head. While I was still on my way though, I got a message from a coworker about a task I didn’t finish today. They asked if I was done with it as they needed to present it to a client tomorrow. Instant panic hit me, a heavy feeling in my stomach. All that overwhelm and chaos came flooding into my head, along with all the catastrphic scenarios I could think of, all the uncomfortable conversations and stressfull situations spewing out of this one task I didn’t complete today.

Well, anyways.